SasuHina - Song for a fool

Author's Note: Hello! I was watching a Korean drama called You're Beautiful when in episode 12, I was inspired with the song "Paboraso/Song for a fool" that one of the guy in the drama sang for the girl. Then this came out! Please listen to the actual Korean song(on YouTube) since the English lyrics here was just the translation of it-although it still could be sang in the same beat as the korean one- This fic is long... I never seem to get to write short one-shots :[

Song for a fool/I'm a fool

Pairing: SasuHina

Sasuke's POV

I don't know how long have I been standing here already. My eyes that can't leave the figure of that someone who has my heart in her. Standing here like a fool, watching her as she looks at another man. Maybe it is really a stupid thing to do. Maybe what I'm feeling could not be something of a big deal for her. Maybe... the pain that stings inside my chest is just something normal. But it feels right. For some reason, everything fits just right.

There isn't anything I regret. As long as I can look after her like this, even if it means I get hurt, I don't mind. I probably will never mind. Right?

~ X ~ X ~ X ~

Like other normal days, today I went to the Hyuuga residence to get Hinata so that we could walk together to the academy. The sun was shining above, showering us with its warmth.

"Were you able to sleep well yesterday night?"

That was one of the lines I used to ask her in order to start a conversation.

"E-eh? Oh, yes. I did, t-thank you Sasuke-kun. How about you?"

And her natural stuttering that never failed to amuse me even after years of our friendship.

"Yeah, I fell asleep thinking of someone."

I took a glance at Hinata, curious of her reaction but as she only looked forward without saying anything, I looked away. Once again, it was just silence between us, no words at all. One of the things we were comfortable at.

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Lunch time was anything but relaxing. The class was so loud I couldn't eat properly so I had a habit of going to the rooftop where there was usually no one around, allowing me to enjoy the peaceful surrounding. It was always only me since Hinata would be dragged around by her female friends. Sometimes that blonde idiot was with her too.

I looked up above in a hope to forget everything even just for a little while. But when the clouds began to form Hinata's face, I knew it was impossible to do so. As childhood friends, we've known each other for like ten years. She was still the shy girl like before. I couldn't help but think she was too innocent and too fragile. My mind was about to wander further back to the past when I noticed someone approaching me.

"Hinata."

"Sasuke-kun, did I disturb you? Did you eat a-already?"

I could only stare at her. Why was she in the rooftop?

"Not yet. You? And why are you here?"

"That's... I thought I should e-eat with you?"

"Hn..."

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The day passed by in a blink of an eye. If I wasn't in the same class as Hinata, I'd probably be bored everyday.

We were walking home together without saying anything to each other again. I did enjoy the quietness but somehow, I wanted to hear her voice. So I spoke.

"How did you know I was in the rooftop earlier?"

"Eh? I knew you a-always go there... and I thought it matches you well. It's peaceful there and you're n-not a person who likes crowded or loud places like o-our classroom."

"Hn. You're no different."

"Oh... Yes... But–"

"But your friends wouldn't let you off that easily. How you manage to go to the rooftop that time was a mystery."

"M-mystery? I... I just–"

"I know."

I stopped walking.

"Sasuke-kun?"

I heard her sweet voice called to me and I shook my head to show that there was nothing wrong and she smiled in response.

Seeing her lavender gray eyes look brightly up at me was enough to catch me off guard. Maybe holding her hand wouldn't be so bad? We always did that when we were younger. I thought if it was just like that, there wouldn't be anything wrong with it, but when I was about to take her hand, a familiar energetic voice shot through the air.

"Hinata! Sasuke!"

I didn't need to turn around to see who it was. No doubt, the loud mouth Naruto. Anyway, more than that, I wanted to see how Hinata would react. So I moved my eyes to steal a glance at her. Unfortunately, it just made me regret it. She had a brighter smile plastered on her beautiful pale face now, as though an angel descended for her, as though a knight came to save her like from those popular fairy tales she had grown to tell me about.

Something pricked inside me. That overly familiar feeling I always got when she talked to the blonde idiot. Or to any other guys.

"Hey, Hinata, Sasuke..."

Naruto caught up to us, catching his breath as well. I turned around and opened my mouth to say something. I couldn't believe it when words didn't come out at all as I saw Hinata's hands placed on his back.

"Oh yeah, let's go to the new arcade game center near here! What do you say Hinata? Sasuke?"

"Arcade g-game?"

Hinata was still clueless with such things. I wanted to tease her but couldn't now that Naruto was with us. He shouldn't misunderstand things between me and Hinata. I was sure she wouldn't like that...

"Yeah! It will be fun! Come on!"

I looked at Hinata to see if she wanted to, and when I saw that she had a hopeful expression, I nodded. I didn't have the time to say that I wouldn't go as Naruto already grabbed her wrist and pulled her with him. They ran off and I stood still there watching my childhood friend's back until they disappeared out of my sight. My mind was in a daze that I didn't take notice of my hands that were clutching tightly at each of my side.

~ X ~ X ~ X ~

Yesterday night, I couldn't sleep well. Sitting here with the teacher saying things my ears wouldn't mind giving attention to... I just kept remembering her smiling face when she talked to Naruto and when they held hands as they ran off to that arcade center. Yet again, I just stood there like a fool watching them. I could see a pattern. I always just stand there. At first, when Hinata was looking at Naruto then when he took her hands on him before they ran off, what could be next? Naruto asking her out? Would I be standing there to watch them too once that happened?

Perhaps... I wouldn't have to. After all, once they go out, Hinata would tell me. And when that happened, I knew I wouldn't be the one to be with her most of the time anymore. I could neither be the one to protect her, nor the one who could give her the happiest days of school life. I wouldn't be the one to see her smile and her cute reactions most of the time. And... I would no longer be the closest person to her. None of those anymore.

Even so, I believed that there were still few things that only I would be able to do for her. I would be the one to think of her the most, to look after her, to give her a smile if ever she'd be insecure of the girls around her boyfriend. I would be the one to respect her and... of course, I would be the one to love her the most.

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Another day had passed and somehow, today was longer than usual. As soon as the after class bell rang, my eyes searched for her. Dark bluish haired girl, with pale complexion of skin...

Nowhere.

Why was she nowhere in the classroom? The next person my eyes searched for was the idiot. Yellow spiky hair... with the loud mouth. He was sitting on his seat talking with another man. If Hinata wasn't here and Naruto wasn't with her... what? Where did she go then?

Before I realized it, I already walked over to the blonde idiot and tapped his shoulder.

"Whoa Sasuke! You scared me! What's the matter?"

"Where's Hinata?"

"Huh? Why are you asking me?"

"You..."

He was with her yesterday and Hinata never left the classroom after class without letting me know! Which only meant something wrong happened.

"Nevermind."

I walked outside the class to search for her. Why haven't I looked after her properly? If I didn't let my mind wander somewhere off, I would have noticed that she left. Damn. And I thought I was the only one who could be guarding her from afar even when she decided to date someone, specifically Naruto. But it seemed like that blonde didn't feel that way for her.

Where could Hinata be now? I doubled my pace and began thinking of the possible places she would be at. Her bag was still on the classroom so that only meant she didn't go home.

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After going to the library, school infirmary, music room, art room, I still couldn't find her. There was one more place left for me to see. The school garden. I didn't notice it myself but I was already running, worried about her. Could she be sick? I remembered when we were younger before, when she was sick, she'd hide from me because she didn't want me to worry for her.

I was panting and the sun was soon to set. I finally arrived at the place where flowers bloomed, on the hope that she was there. And I was right, my eyes caught the sight of the beautiful girl with her dark long hair dancing along with the wind that was blowing, her back was facing me. She was just standing there in solemn.

"Hinata?"

She turned her head and looked at me. My body stiffened. There were no tears flowing down from her eyes but there was something missing from them. She had an unexplainable expression, just like robot, her face was blank and I panicked. Why? What made her look like this?

I had the sudden urge to embrace her, if she felt depressed with something, I wanted to whisper reassuring words to her, if she was on the verge of crying, I wanted to let her know she could lean on me. With that thought, I made my way as quick as I could to her and pulled her in a hug, wrapping my arms around her.

"What's wrong?"

"I... I just realized... s-something. I l-l-like someone b-but..."

My body froze again at her words. I already accepted the fact that I was alright with her liking someone, but my heart wasn't ready to take it yet, I guess...

Scratch that, I was supposed to hear her problem and be there for her. I felt her lean her forehead on my shoulder.

"But... h-he doesn't seem to realize it. He probably t-thinks... I like someone e-else... that, or... he l-likes someone else..."

"Hinata..."

She liked that guy this much? I looked up at the sky that was painted with orange yellow feathery clouds.

"Do you want to hear a story about a clueless girl?"

"W-what? O-okay..."

"There was this beautiful girl who had a friend who happened to be a guy. The guy liked her ever since they were young but she never found out about it. Then the guy discovered that the girl had someone she liked, and his heart was crashed down. But despite that, he was there for her, trying to be of help. He was satisfied with just giving his love to her without any return..."

"Sasuke-kun. Are you sure t-that the girl was the c-clueless one? The story c-could have b-been changed..."

"Well..."

"I-I... I..."

"You haven't heard the rest of the story yet, listen to me first."

"Oh... okay."

"The guy indeed gave up of his feelings being returned. But he wanted to give the girl a clue about his feelings and so he decided to take her to a music room."

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"S-sasuke-kun, where are we going?"

I took a hold of her hand and pulled her with me. No words came out from me as we strode over to one certain place. We shortly arrived at it and I opened the door. Once I saw the guitar resting on a corner, I took it and sat at the floor beside the wall nearest the door. I tapped the spot beside me as I turned my head to look at Hinata.

She didn't move at first, which made me worry that she realized what I meant and that she didn't want it. I've never feared anything, neither failing nor being rejected... But when it came to her, everything became different. My fear disappeared when she walked over to my side and sat. I couldn't know what she was thinking.

All I knew was she was ready to listen. My fingers began strumming the cords as I let myself sink into the depths of the lyrics of the song.

Maybe this is because I'm a fool, it is okay even when I get hurt, even when others say that it is useless love, it doesn't matter because I'm a fool.

I was nice to her because I wanted to, I was happy for just that, if she smiled just once, I'm happy just with that smile.

Until the day when her love will come, I will just stay next to her like this, since it is a happy love for me just giving, I don't need anything else from her. I will be there whenever she reaches out, I will be there whenever she calls out, without a change I will be there, because I love her, because I'm a fool...

"Sasuke-kun..."

Hinata's voice snapped me out of my trance. Surely, she now know how I feel for her...

"Sasuke-kun."

The change of tone on her voice made me look at her, pale lavender gray eyes locked its gaze with mine.

"the... the girl that the guy like sure is... l-lucky..."

Wait, what? Don't tell me she still hasn't figured out?

I looked away and buried my face in my arms that supported my bent up left knee, the guitar resting by my left side now. I didn't know if I wanted to just laugh or not.

"S-sasuke...kun? Are you alright?"

My feelings for her were really strong. I love her... Nothing would change that. The moment I raised my head up, I saw her looking at me worriedly, her lips parted slightly and eyes full of concern. Then I did something I shouldn't have. Before I knew it, everything around me aside from her already seemed to disappear. Her lips that were pressed against mine was so soft I didn't want to let her go. I really am a fool. At the very least, I wanted to be her first kiss. And yes, I knew this would be her first. I felt guilty for taking it like this but... I was a human too. I could be really selfish...

As I broke the kiss, I touched my forehead with hers and held my eyes closed: too afraid to see how she reacted to it. Silence wrapped us together. It was after few minutes that I heard her speak as meek as usual.

"D-do you know? About the s-song you sang, about the g-girl... she might have liked the f-foolish guy too..."

"Really? If that's the case, the guy would be more than that of a fool."

"That's why... y-you... you're a... you're more than that of a fool, Sasuke..."

"What? Hinata... I'm not taking any jokes now."

"But..."

The moment I opened my eyes, I saw the red tint slowly spreading across her cheeks. Did she just blush? As I put the pieces together from how she was acting, I couldn't help but let my eyes widen. Did she mean? Really? Did she really...? Wait, but what was all that moments with the blond idiot?

"Didn't you like the idiot?"

"I-Idiot...?"

"I mean, Naruto."

For some reason, Hinata lowered her gaze, her bangs covering half of her face that I couldn't see her facial gesture. After a few moments, she looked at me again, this time with certainty. I only stared at her as she smiled at me.

"The girl likes the guy who sang the song for a fool. Not the other guy who the foolish guy thought that the girl likes."

There was no stuttering on her words, I was actually dumbfounded. But the main reason why words escaped from me was because of what she meant by what she said. I couldn't believe it. I was unable to hold myself back from her when I decided I'd let her be as long as she was happy but then all this time, I was unable to know she actually felt the same way for me?

At this moment, I thought I was the stupidest guy who ever walked on this planet. Yet at the same time, I felt like I just became the happiest person and felt ever so complete. I always became this helpless whenever it was her.

I reached out my hand and pulled her to me. Never mind about the faces she had made with Naruto, I was only blind to the thing that was right there in front of me. From now on, I'd make sure I hear it from her first before making wrong assumptions again.

I've never been a fool. I never wanted to be. Just that Hinata happened to make me act like one, as unintentional as it was. Although, this now for sure... I really would never mind.